Nalluryang

2012-02-10T22:29:00.005+08:00

2012-02-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

2012-01-31T04:12:00.002+08:00

I realized that the grass on the opposite really does seem greener.
When there's none, I complain. But when there is more then one, I can't come out with an answer.

Either way, it's headache.

2012-01-30T08:18:00.004+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year folks!
Hope y'all enjoyed your days, we're left with a few more days till binge gambling stops! Let's all win more, HUATTTT AH!

Been crazily partying and doing visiting for the past few weeks, hence there will be tonnes of pictures!
Will upload them soon! :)

2012-01-19T04:34:00.005+08:00

Had a small little shopping session back in last week over at Johor Bahru with both my lovely girls. Having known each other for 11 years, and yet that was our FIRST trip having a girls overseas together. Really heart warming and bonding.

Had been really busy with work stuffs, partying consecutively for almost a week and doing visiting(s) for Chinese New Year. Officially worn out, rejected drinking and even gambling. Gotta rest!
Will be posting up more pictures soon.

2012-01-16T02:30:00.002+08:00

I take a look at my smile, pause for a little while and in turn question myself, what's behind that smile of mine. Is there even any happiness to begin with? And my answer was no, still a no after almost a year.

I haven't been happy in the longest time and I'm desperately in need of happiness. I'm on the verge of forgetting how those wonderful feeling feels like. There was a point where I felt sincere happiness, felt whole and felt completed but it lasted for barely a month and I threw it all away...

Always distant from happiness.

2012-01-08T08:21:00.004+08:00

Haven't had enough rest for the longest time, ever! Guess my total time spent sleeping this week adds up to only 15 hours, hence my facial condition :( Never seen any outbreak like this before and all the pimples are killing me. They look really ugly and sadly, inseparable.

Nails, as usual, done by me :)

2012-01-08T01:30:00.003+08:00

January 6.
Kelvin & Esther's big day!

My dearest girlfriend is finally married and am really really happy for her!
Couldn't help but to shed tears when I see her eyes getting all watery each and every time. I love her more than anything else money can buy..

I was the Emcee for the wedding dinner together with KN. Given that I had massive stage fright, I thought that my voice and hands would shake but surprisingly everything turned out fine :)

Once again, CONGRATULATIONS TO BOTH MY DEAREST FRIENDS! :)

HAPPY 2012^^

2012-01-02T07:21:00.002+08:00

Since half of 2011 had me deprived of so much happiness, I suppose 2012 would be a better year? Cross my fingers and hopes for the best!

You're still the only one that I still miss and truly gave my heart to after 8 months of being alone, that shouldn't be the case.

2011-12-22T06:23:00.007+08:00

ADVANCED MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
Will be leaving SG in a couple of hours, and I can't wait to be back :(

A shot to kill the pain
a pill to drain the shame
a purge to stop the gain
a cut to break the vein
a smoke to ease the crave
a drink to win the game
an addiction's an addictions
Because it always hurts the same......

2011-12-13T04:39:00.002+08:00

It takes awhile to let go of a certain feeling you are holding on to.
But no matter how hard the process will be, I'm strong enough to go through it because I know hanging on onto something which isn't worth my time nor pain, isn't worth it at all :)

This is me, if I can let you into my heart, I can also let you out.

2011-12-13T03:13:00.003+08:00

I lost all faith, all.

MY TUMBLR.

2011-12-07T13:37:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH CHINA?!

Forget it that you couldn't be bothered to save a 2 year old kid after she was being knocked down by a car.

Forget it that you snickered while watching a girl being molested in broad daylight.

Yet now, kicking a kid in his face?!?!? Even so, if he did something wrong, IS THERE THE NEED TO DO SOMETHING SO INHUMANE?! We lost all respect for you, China. Everyone lost their respect for you.

2011-11-25T03:20:00.001+08:00

Take me away, away to somewhere whereby I can no longer feel.

2011-11-21T21:40:00.001+08:00

CAN'T WAIT FOR ZOUK OUT!!!!!!!

2011-11-19T06:03:00.001+08:00

就让我用泪水来洗脸吧, 反正都那么习惯了.. 我无所谓, 我认命了..

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2011-11-17T04:11:00.002+08:00

We can't catch up with lost time nor can we turn it back.
But if time allows, there would be so many things that I wouldn't be doing, things that I wouldn't have done.
I've failed badly in life and it seems just pathetic to be in my position.

I've came so far into life and also gone through so many ordeals, so many obstacles but it all seems never ending.
How is it even possible that some people live their life so happily yet some others just can't? All that I ever wanted was to be a little happier, but again why does it seem so distant...

Behind all my laughter and smiles, how many are even real?
I'm not really sure myself.

2011-11-16T21:47:00.003+08:00

Photos taken at Nana, credits to Tiger Lily :)

Many times I questioned myself why, why me?
It shouldn't be me.

2011-11-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

After abstracting my wisdom tooth.

And so, I had my wisdom tooth abstracted this morning. Surgery was done under 30 minutes, really fast. Had 3 jabs before surgery as to numb the half side of my mouth, ended up speaking like a stroke patient. Sounded way too funny. Wound was stitched up to end the surg, and once the anesthetic wore off, the pain can said to be rested on a level 9.

Photos were taken at Nana over the weekends, will upload more soon :)

2011-11-14T02:52:00.002+08:00

I miss you, down with the last 4 days till I see you ♥

Funny how you stole my heart within such a short period of time and how your smile totally mesmerized me.

I hope this thing between us gets me somewhere happier, some place where I can forget the pain that I've gone through, some one worth my time and love after 6 months of hurt.

You have my heart, my body and my soul.
Yours, truly.

2011-11-13T16:24:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it's not always about guys. Spending time with a group of girlfriends are also one of the happiest thing which can happen in life.

Caught the movie, Tower Heist. Laughed my lungs out. Headed down to Nana, will upload more photos soon^^

2011-11-11T02:36:00.008+08:00

We all dream of a perfect guy to call our own, we all long to lead a simple life with the one we love. We never gave up searching, we never gave up on the word called 'hope'.

But what returns us at the end of the day while holding on to faith? Love tore us into million pieces, all for the word LOVE.

Sure the cuddling sessions are indeed much memorable and perhaps greater then a long passionate night, but do we deserve getting our hearts broken just because we needed somebody to lean on, someone to rely on, and someone to kiss our forehead telling us that everything is gonna be alright for He is already here?

Fiducia, inked onto my wrist as a reminder that I should never give up faith in love. I haven't.

But has Love given up on me?

I've forgotten how it really feels like to be sincerely happy.

2011-11-11T00:19:00.002+08:00

Out with the tiniest amount of make up today, thus the spectacles. Hurhur^^

Caught the show "You are the apple of my eye" and it made me tear as though I'm insane. Funny how a guy can be so terribly good to a girl.. But well, it only happens in movies :(

2011-11-10T01:34:00.005+08:00

That's Emmeline and me looking really drunk.

Above are the 2 set of nails that I did for myself, love bling nails to the max. Find so much joy and passion in doing it.

And yes, that gross picture was what I did few months back. Really sick, but I enjoy piercing myself. Somehow, or rather to me it hurts more if someone else were to pierce it for me. But the piercing is no longer there shortly after a month cuz everyone says that it looks ugly on me :(

Spent my weekends over at Sensation, and off to Nana.

A thousand words can't pen down how I feel right now.

2011-11-09T18:09:00.003+08:00

We girls do it best, camwhore baby, camwhore.

It's only Day 3 since he booked in, left with countless of days to seeing him again.

Really tempted to watch 23:59 but I'm a scary cat. Doubt I will get to sleep in peace after watching that movie :(

Now you can ask me anything & everything on the top right column of my blog with Formspring!

2011-11-08T01:43:00.002+08:00

2011-11-06T22:39:00.002+08:00

Never belittle, and never back down.
Because someday life will bounce right back up to you and finally show you the reason for all your smiles.

2011-11-02T19:05:00.001+08:00

Photo taken at Nana during Halloween :)

Gone were the times, memories was the best.

2011-11-01T23:14:00.002+08:00

Again, photos are taken at Nana :)

I'm falling with fear that I might just get hurt again.
And the feeling is killing me inside. Such a bitter sweet emotion yet I've have to hold myself back just so I will not shed any tears anymore.

I'm afraid.

2011-10-31T19:50:00.003+08:00

Took away my blog entries from 2008-2009.

Met Daren Tan ages ago at KPO and went for a fishing trip with him as well.
It's funny how I spend most of my days drinking again currently.
I've spent wayyyyyy to much at Club Nana and I really think it's time for me to stop going there which I highly doubt is possible.

Life has given me tonnes of ups and downs but still, I'm happier then before which is a good thing :)

2011-10-29T20:04:00.004+08:00

I guess majority of the pictures that I've uploaded since, are all taken from Nana.
Hurhur ^^ It's Halloween and I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DRESS UP AS. Damn loser.
Gonna enjoy and have fun again at N4N4 later! But firstly, St james.

Have fun everyone!

2011-10-28T20:57:00.003+08:00

Finally back to clear some webs off my site. Poor thing.

Celebrated my awesome 21st at my favvvv place Nana.
Found a job BEFORE my 21st, thank god.

Will be back to upload more photos again.

2011-08-29T18:02:00.005+08:00

Photos taken at Nana, Boiler, Dragonfly & Neverland.

It's a Monday night, and it's also a public holiday tomorrow! And I'm still home! HOW CANNNNN?!?!?!?!

2011-08-23T19:24:00.002+08:00

Wasn't even dressed for drinking on a Saturday night, hadn't plan to drink. Ended up going to boiler & nana.

I'm losing myself. I feel so empty..
20 panadols, wasn't even enough to make me puke. Sigh.

2011-08-20T05:39:00.002+08:00

From Dolly to fly, and back to Dolly and again over to Fly & Boiler.
Really a waste of cab fares..

Had a great HTHT talk with my dear Jasreen : )

2011-08-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

Flying high and wild.
Nothing's gonna tame me.

Enjoying my life to the fullest!

2011-08-16T05:35:00.003+08:00

Nana; Ocean; Boiler.

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Thought that today would finally be my rest day to stop drinking... Ended up partying like crazy again....

I miss you, S.

2011-08-15T05:15:00.003+08:00

Every single day.

Been drinking every single day, finding back bit and pieces of my life but still getting my heart broken every now and then : ( why oh why...?

2011-08-03T04:57:00.002+08:00

Shots.

This is what happens when tooooooo much shots are involved! All the 3 and 5 seconds practically made me fall everywhere, from the playground, to the road. Crazy crazy night.

My loveliest boys are finally becoming MEN! 3 of them just got enlisted : ( Missing them like crazy because we spent almost everyday together! Can't wait to see them after the 2 weeks confinement period!

2011-07-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

Really sickening beat! Love it!

2011-07-25T15:23:00.002+08:00

Biker chic.

Gonna start get my license soon! And hopefully be able to pass in the shortest time frame! I remember that my dream was to ride when I was 18, but 3 years later..... Lol, I'm still taking taxi(s). So, all the best to me!

Funny how I don't really like making new friends after I am single, it's such a hassle. But occasionally I still do meet some nice people like D who makes me happy : ) The thing which gets onto my nerve is when people keep pestering for a reply! Goodness, why can't they just get the hint and go off?

I haven't been replying much to almost everyone except those same o'good friends of mine. A good thing, I guess? Heh.

Given my heart to him, and there's no longer space for anyone else : )

2011-07-24T04:47:00.002+08:00

Crazy night.

Just got home from a really enjoyable night though my neck is still killing me. Dammit! I really shouldn't have danced so much....

2 more days till HE COMES BACK! : )

2011-07-23T04:55:00.002+08:00

Never been happier : )

Sprained my neck yesterday and it hurts like crazy,
wonder how am I gonna make it for the drinking session later on.

Finally after so many days of being off-shore he's coming home! Can't wait!!!!! : )

2011-07-21T17:29:00.002+08:00

IN LOVE WITH SEUNG-HYUN!

2011-07-21T01:51:00.002+08:00

Happy? Hehe.

How many girls/ guys actually re-reads messages because I DO! Girls are always the much sensitive ones who really looks into small tiny things that a guy does and get so happy over it.

2011-07-20T02:04:00.005+08:00

Sometimes.

I'm 21 and had never been single for this long. Ya, right I know that it's just 2 months since I broke up but this is me! I hate loneliness and I yearn for companionship. It just kills me to be alone!

Though it's true that being single is really much better because there won't be quarrels, no tears and no pain BUT.... being in love is still something so strong that I don't wanna miss out on. Just thinking about it warms my heart : )

Cuddling sessions, heart to heart talk, when time passes so quickly when you're out with the one you love, when you wake up each day and all you hope is to see his text..... See?? Being in love has so many advantages too! Awwwwwww........ ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Nuff said, cause lonely Nallur has got NONE! ZEROOOO!!! Dammit. When it seems like the whole world is in love, i'm out of love. Life's unfair. Haha!

21st birthday's reaching in a couple of months and hopefully I would have someone with me by then!
*HOPEFULLY* hehehehehe.

Empty.

2011-07-19T15:32:00.001+08:00

Breaking down; Subconsciously

Just wanna be happy, is that so hard????

Always.

2011-07-18T03:31:00.002+08:00

Always gonna remind myself to stay happy and cheerful because I have got a really good group of supportive friends who would always stand by me in times of need. Cheers to the group of awesome friends that I have, 9 years and counting! A friend in need, is a friend indeed.

Feels like.

2011-07-17T17:38:00.002+08:00

Empty.

Funny how one can get so lonely and empty after a short period of time, like some part of some thing just can't get into the right place. How do we define all of these when we don't even know the answers ourselves. Guess I just gotta suck it up and wait.

Lonely.

2011-07-15T01:33:00.003+08:00

Some one.

If only I had some one, just someone to share my daily life with. Someone for me to rely on. Someone who would constantly be there for me. Someone whom would love and dote on me. That would be more than enough, and i would be contended.

What say you?

2011-07-13T16:56:00.002+08:00

Who says?!

I hate it when my thoughts and decision are being swayed around even after I have confirmed. Happy that I got the job, unhappy that my Dad is being upset about it. He means everything to me and I wouldn't be happy if he isn't!
But c'mon, it's still a normal office job, just that the way we handle stuffs are kinda different. But Dad doesn't think this way, he knows the way of almost everything which is happening.

I felt confident, but now I just feel upset and confused and it really sucks. I haven't work for almost 7 months now, and finally when I do, he's asking me to look for another one.

2011-07-11T16:53:00.002+08:00

Back from Wetnam!

Vietnam has been fine, not really a country worth visiting but so far so good. The 11 of us lived like Kings & Queens.

It breaks my heart seeing parents using their child as a winning card to earn money, also, handicapped beggars are everywhere to be found. It's terrifying to see syndicates still existing.

9 years!

2011-07-06T14:48:00.001+08:00

FRIENDSHIP.

Did this video earlier on. Friends hold a very special place in my heart : )

Be sure to pause the song on my blog before playing this!

Oh oh baby.

2011-07-06T01:06:00.002+08:00

Counting down!

How long is this gonna last?

Voices.

2011-07-05T18:06:00.002+08:00

Power in the house.

I'm losing faith in them, all of them. I wonder if there are any better ones left around.

Heading to Vietnam on Thursday and I hope when I return, I'm gonna be alot happier!

Guys?

2011-07-04T16:29:00.002+08:00

Respect.

I'll just go straight to the point, how can girls go to a club and allow for just ANY guys to have sex with them?! It disgust me to a certain limit. It tarnish the reputation of girls because then, all guys would just think that girls there are fuckable. Sorry, but no. Not all girls are like them. That's it, period.

To all the guys who think NOT with their minds but with their crotch, I would like to ink it into your brains,

MIND OVER MATTERS BASTARDS.

Respect a girl if she has been portraying herself well enough! Don't treat us as Call Girls and don't even think about having some retard One Night Stand.
If we wanted anything, anything at all, we wouldn't be behaving ourselves! GET IT?!

After seeing a fair share of typical horny guys, I'm really disappointed and losing faith. Don't any of them know what's RESPECTING A GIRL?

Gone with the old.

2011-07-02T16:45:00.002+08:00

Gettin' over it, all.

The truth hurts, lets just face it.
I couldn't accept what I've heard, it kept going through my mind time after time. I asked myself, why do I want to go back to something which hurts me so much when I am really happier being alone. In the past, I would love to make myself dead drunk and cry over stupid stuffs and make myself look stupid. But this was different, I haven't gotten drunk, I haven cried while drinking.

I told myself that I would be strong, and that I wouldn't cry, which I really did : )

There are times when friends say, "EH DONT EMO LEI." and I would say I'm not. None of which believed... But I am, I really am. I'm quite straight forward, if I'm not alright, the whole world would know. I'm not good at hiding my feelings. And when I say I am ok, I AM.

Happy 1st month being single to me, I am enjoying it. But I yearn for companionship.. Than again, I believe I can survive with my awesome grp of good friends : )

Happy, Nallur.

2011-06-24T14:04:00.002+08:00

Where's the exit?

I'm sick and tired of my life this way. How long has it been? I can't even remember. It was supposed to be easy, just one step and I'll be fine. But it's taking me forever to just take that step. Yes, I admit that I am a spoilt kid who only knows how to stretch my hand out and call Daddy whenever I need money. But I'm really tired, my life has no aim and needless to say, direction.

How can something so simple turn out to be my biggest fear? I got no idea. I need a guide, I need someone who can help me go through everything, not just the happy times. I have got no idea who am I right now...............

There are so many times which I sat on the ledge of my window, crying my hearts out. But crying doesn't help..... I would trade my life for a person who treasures theirs more..

2011-06-14T16:43:00.002+08:00

Red head chick!

Finally done with my hair, really like it alot.

Ok, I guess I'm way too lazy to continue with my post (below) but whatever...

My sleep timing has been really really messed up! Sigh. It's soon t0 5pm and I am not asleep yet! Damn tired!! Been awake for almost 24 hours now. Hopefully I can try tune my time back tonight : )

Life's still the same without him, 2 weeks being alone and I'm really loving it. Being single really has more advantages!!

On and off.

2011-06-01T08:23:00.002+08:00

I'm a type of person who is very dependent on others and never myself, which often brings me to the wrong path too quickly. I just climbed out from one and I jump into another pit that fast.

And given that dependency on others, I will never take my time to think through it carefully. I will just blindly follow my heart which is often wrong.....

Will continue with this post soon.

Cycling trip.

2011-05-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

East coast park.

Went for cycling and a movie without any sleep since Saturday is crazy. Shag max.. Watched Pirates of the Caribbean, fell asleep for some time. But the show wasn't nice. Kinda wasted my time.

Having a very bad cough now and my throat hurts like a bitch.

My dearest baby.

2011-05-21T03:46:00.002+08:00

Jrom, my best partner & friend.

Specially dedicated to my boyfriend whom has always been there, regardless of ups or down.

On that very very special day, my facebook chat popped up. There he was, one fine stranger. (a very good looking one too) He has been in my friend list for 385792 years but never once have we talked. But there, on that day... My real partner came along : )

We started off as friends who could really click, and slowly, we spent every single day together. I never really thought we could last this long, (maybe not long to most people out there, but this is the longest I had so far) because we had obstacles. Many obstacles in fact. On some random day, we broke up due to quarrels. By then, we started what many couples would have done, we broke up and we patched, roughly around 4 times. When we finally got back together, I told myself to never ever let go anymore because this isn't what a relationship should be like.

Has anyone, anyone at all, experienced these indescribable feeling at all? That very "no-words-can-explain-how-you-feel feeling? Whenever I look at him, everything seems so right, that he's the one. That feeling whereby time should freeze and never continue anymore because the feeling is soooo soooo special that it can move you to tears?

Finally for the first time in my life, I had a chance to say "Happy ONE YEAR anniversary" instead of just stopping at "months".

A relationship is never perfect and will never be fair. But it takes either one to smooth out the journey and make it a longer one.

There he is, right in front of me, MINE... : )

Black, white and gray.

2011-05-15T16:00:00.001+08:00

The price of being stress-free.

Been rotting my life away doing nothing as usual : ( The only good thing that I gained is that I do not have to force myself up every single day.

I really enjoy waking up being fresh and energize without the help of a alarm but by the time I wake up, the sun has almost set.. : ( Come to think of it, waking up in the wee mornings has better advantage! I usually wake up around 5-6pm and by the time I'm done preparing, most of the shops are already closing..

BUT I HATE WAKING UP EARLY!!!

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GE!!

2011-05-08T03:54:00.001+08:00

What the fuck?! George Yeo is leaving parliament just because TPL is in? She knows nothing, and she has got NO confidence. Can't speak proper English and is defending more for PAP rather than the people of Singapore.

We are losing a good Minister Singapore. Sigh.... Speechless and disappointed!

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Friends.

2011-05-06T00:59:00.003+08:00

please help me click on my ads, thanks : )

Headed to barrage and had a whole new experience. (Not that I haven't been there before.) But because the picnic went horribly wrong after both my gfs drank. Lol. But still, it was fun. Bonding with my girls really makes that one day special.

I want a direction in life, I'm tired of being "myself" for the past few years.

French.

2011-05-01T04:42:00.001+08:00

Did this simple French extension earlier on for myself. Haven been doing gel extensions for a few months now, which explains the "not so nice" results. Gees..

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2011-04-30T06:24:00.001+08:00

Spent my entire night at Rebel with my closest : )

My darling, who loves to see himself drunk in pictures haha.

And finally with my Sis & Cousin.

We were all enjoying ourselves till some cheapo stole my Sis iphone4. And given my crazy attitude, I practically went mad. Almost hit 3 malay girls that my Sis suspected, but guess I'm always lucky that my friends will pull me away.

Soooooo, fuck you thief..... That's all that you care about? A iPhone 4 that you would rather steal? Argh, seriously, fuck you.

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2011-04-28T03:45:00.001+08:00

Can I please have my long hair back?

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Exercise!

2011-04-28T00:32:00.001+08:00

Fatter and fatter.

I think I might need to start jogging soon, damn those thighs which is getting fatter each day!

i4

2011-04-26T15:07:00.001+08:00

Me & Sis iPhone : )
So much better in compared to casing.

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Pimp my berry pink.

2011-04-25T04:22:00.001+08:00

Finally after 3 years, she became pink.

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Tweet tweet

2011-04-24T05:30:00.003+08:00

Add me folks!
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If only time could be turned back.
My first ink at 17, and gradually it became more. From the hip, to ankle, to ear bone, to the shoulder blade and lastly wrist.

It started of as a scorpion, followed by my "nickname" than it came up to my ear bone with the initials of a person, ankle with roses, top spine with the "ahlian" wording 爱与恨..

Over the years, the initials got covered up and had since became a butterfly. The chinese wordings too, became a hugeass geisha face.

Again, I wanted more so few months ago, I did another one on my wrist which writes 'fiducia' and it stands for faith (which I have yet to regret).

I would gladly get the scorpion, nickname & geisha off my bod if I get another chance to choose. But sadly, no. So think twice before getting a tattoo, it might be the regret of your life.

"Tattoos are like potato chip, one is never enough."

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OH!

2011-04-22T04:13:00.003+08:00

OH YA,AND! I CUT MY HAIR FROM THIS..........

TO.........

THIS..

Pathetic eh....? I regretted.

Eeee, like a blind.

2011-04-22T03:59:00.002+08:00

Perfect eyesight.

Regretted on how I used to force myself into watching TV at a horribly close distance just to get my parents to fit me a spectacle. It used to be stuck around 100 degrees but o'well, shit happens and so did my eyes. It used to be a trouble to get a pair of contact lens with different degrees, you have to get 2 pairs instead. So...... I self adjusted my degrees from 300 plus to 400 all so that I do not need to go through the hassle of getting 2 pairs instead.

AND SO, RIGHT NOW, I AM PRACTICALLY 1/4 BLIND.

Fucking shit.

Time..

2011-04-21T02:03:00.002+08:00

Fatty.

Being a woman is such a pain. My weight has never gone above 50kg. But right now it has hit 48! Getting fat is so easy but losing those fats are insanely hard! Zzz. Sometimes my appetite expands to the extend that I keep eating heavy meals within a short duration. But at times, it shrinks so much that one meal a day can last.

When we put on weight, our face, tummy, arms and thighs all gets the horrible effects.. But the best thing is the boobs grow so much bigger. But why cant the fats just be stored over at that part? Arghhh. Losing weight means losing your boobs as well. It's so unfair..

But time can tell if I'm putting on weight for the right or wrong reasons : )

Money Matters.

2011-04-19T01:33:00.002+08:00

Jobs, money, money, jobs.

Cute little Oreo.

Done a month ago and it's still lasting till now.

I tore 4 pairs of my lens within a month : (
And there seem to be no lens supplier who have their stock ready for immediate posting. Dammit. I need lens ASAP!!
Any recommendations? Please let me know, thank you!

Looking for a job is freaking hard, even so the working hours are miserable.. 8.30am?! Seriously why can't office start at a later timing? It's so hard to wake up for ladies who needs to make up and whatsoever. Given an hour purely for make up, 30 mins to shower.. Transportation needs at least 45mins!!! CRAZY, SO CRAZY!!
Mrt and buses is a BIG NO NO! Cabs are so so so damn hard to find during peak hours. Arghhh.

But than again, I really need a job : (
Dads' business for me isn't ready till end of year..
Which means I still gotta buck up & earn my own money now.

It feels so pathetic to be taking allowance from my Dad at the age of 21, a ADULT.

Recently, I went for a interview for some nail thingy.
And I bet the boss is a miser. She's gonna pay me like $900/mth and ON TOP OF THAT, deduct some crazy shit amount of $200 (apprentice fee) for i dno how long. End of the month, I will be getting $600 and still gotta deduct CPF. MAD MISER!!!!
I almost wanted to tell her that she's crazy and that I get more than what she's offering a month BY STAYING AT HOME DOING NOTHING!

Good for Mommy, she's in England. So much better than staying in this "all about working country."

11th MONTH!

2011-04-14T18:41:00.002+08:00

One more day : )

One more month to our first year! And this will be the first of all my previous which I will be able to say One Year Anniversary! : )

Am desperately looking for a job, and though I dislike admin, but I'm thinking of working as an admin again. Staying in SG is really hard.. So much time to spend on work yet so little time to do our own personal stuffs.

21 this year, yet I'm still taking money from Dad : (

Bye..

2011-04-12T01:32:00.003+08:00

Please help me click on the nuffnang ads!
Thanks!!

Last picture with Mom!

It's so hard to tune back to the normal sleeping timing now.
Woke up at 12am today, how am I even supposed to get it right?

Battleground.

2011-04-06T01:51:00.002+08:00

Sheffield.

This is when I get too bored~~

Mommy's gonna leave for England this Friday and I'll only get to see her once a year in future. After so many years, she can finally fight for her happiness and be happy : )

I'll miss you Mom and I hope that everything's gonna be smooth for you!

SO DEAD.

2011-04-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

Seems like I semi forgotten about my already dead blog.. And my blog hits went crazily down hill.

Quit my job over at the BMW workshop since a thousand and one things happened a mouth ago and been rotting at home since.. It's kinda impossible for me to pen what happened for the past insane months.. So.. I shall summarize everything that of which I can remember.

Health's getting much better, but seriously believes that it's time I get some help from a psychiatrist. Been throwing things around, banging myself on concrete walls and once again slashing my poor wrist. I know most would say it's dumb. BUT, per-leaseeee... I can't help myself either, right? If I could, than obviously I wouldn't.

Heard outrageous MASSIVE backstabbings from one of my closest girl friend (bad friend). Hate hate hate x48578940 people who talks so much behind you yet acts so nicely when she's with ya. Dumb shit..

Did my awesome chio nails which is on me for a month now, damn worth it! Mad love it lor!

Has anyone had a family issue for sucha long time, yet nothing helps. For 12 years now, I still can't help it... Feel so helpless and there's nothing much which can help as well. Dammit.

VDAY!

2011-02-16T19:19:00.002+08:00

Fatty fatty bom bom!

B'LATED V'DAY TO ALL! : )

2011-02-01T16:19:00.002+08:00

Dolore.

I wanna be thin, I wanna be thin, I wanna be thinner!
But it's just so hard! Just 2kg to make my weight down to 43, please!

You say bye, I say Hi.

2011-01-20T14:00:00.003+08:00

New tat on left wrist.
Google the meaning if y'all interested : )

I believe that whatever comes around, goes around.
People always say, "forgive & forget". But what if it was just impossible to do so? What if it has been haunting you for 11 years?
Will that still be as easy?

Losers.

2011-01-17T14:41:00.002+08:00

Losers like you,

never do grow up, huh? : )

Hey, "Kelvin".
This post is specially dedicated to you : )

Just a very small reminder to a very small fry like you.
If you have got nothing better to do, go play on your hair, ears, tits, or dick I don't care.
But don't take my blog as your free time, spamming as and when you want : )

And hey do you know people like you are down right cheap?

Try searching for my tagbox loser, OOPS you can't find it! It's in your asshole hiding just like what you are doing.

Tada and bye for now : )

Haden.

2011-01-11T17:00:00.003+08:00

Hi Baby, Mommy misses you.

You would have been 6 months old if you were here today.

And I would have been smiling proudly showing you to the world.

Waiting for the day you call me Mama : )

I wonder where you are.

Have you disappeared or are you happily playing.

Mommy wants to know, because you never do update me.

Still in my heart darling,

Love you always.

Gosh.

2011-01-09T17:34:00.004+08:00

I wish, I wish, I wish.
But there isn't any left for me.

I'm not sure if I was supposed to be here, but I am.
I'm not glad, nor do I appreciate.

I'm tired & I just wanna sleep forever.

But, I can't.

Pictures.

2011-01-06T20:23:00.004+08:00

SOME pictures up.

Arghhh, I hate going to clubs!
I can't even drink a cup without feeling asthmatic!
Imagine how breathless I feel while dancing?!

Ok, so my life is basically mundane right now
Work, smoke, sleep. And this horrible thing goes on for quite some time.
Kinda miss my old tai tai life, whereby everyday is Sunday.
But it's time I earn my own and stop taking tonnes of pocket money!
Thinking back......... AWWW, WHAT A AWESOME LIFE I HAD NOT WORKING FOR YEARS : D

Will update soon! : )

AIYOH!

2011-01-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

Belated Merry Christmas &
a Happy New Year!

Had been kinda busy, which explains the lack of update.
Lost all festive seasons mood, and lost all joy in celebrating both the public holidays. HOW SAD!

Hope things will be better down the road of 2011.

Horse Zodiac! We are under the category of "fan tai sui" this year. So, watch out & avoid gambling!

I'll do pictures update soon!

2010-12-15T11:07:00.002+08:00

Readers, please help me like this PAGE : )
Thank you!

Tired?

2010-12-14T10:18:00.004+08:00

Have you ever in your life felt
that nothing was worth anymore?

Because I did, countless of times.

When I was just a kid, I was forced to stay with my Dadad & Stepmom.
And from there, I had suicidal thoughts.

At the age of 10, I left his place and went back to my Moms.

I became rebellious and had myself being treated as a ball,
thrown from either homes.
One which I hated, and would rather kill myself.
On the other hand, one which I loved so dearly yet taken for granted.
At 14, I overdosed and had myself overnight in the hospital with drips all over me.
Police came and took my statement..
I can't count how many times have I overdosed myself till date.
From puking, till shaking and till getting into a 24hr coma.

I used to be an addict, getting myself into shit loads of trouble (But no jail terms!).
I became paranoid, I started relying on those regardless of my mood.
Mommy caught me having the time of my life at home..

And for her, I stopped. It took me months, but I did it anyways.

There's so many times I've looked down the window, sobbing my hearts out.
Wondering how would it be like if I were to jump, and when I said 'wondering', I really do picture the image out from jumping till flying till death.

But I'm lack of guts, perhaps if I'm stronger, I wouldn't even be here today.

I do have a great boyfriend, a wonderful family.
But maybe this is me,
someone who wished from the start that she hasn't been born.

Turkey.

2010-12-02T14:51:00.002+08:00

Mine, always.

At times, I really do not know what to do with you.
We are both so strong headed,
and after 6months, giving in isn't really in the dictionary anymore.
But because of love, we overcome everything : )

I just banned my own IP, AGAIN.

Anon: Is it really nice? My boyfriend wants to watch it so badly! : )

Good times.

2010-11-24T14:19:00.007+08:00

DO HELP ME CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG,
Thank you! : )

Jason's 21st birthday chalet.
Being sober everyday isn't a good thing,
so when you drink, why gauge? : )
Just drink till you get DRUNK, and I meant MAD DRUNK.

Every day's same old same old,
sleep by 1am, awake by 8.30am.
That's how life can get so boring when a person starts to work.

ANYWAYS... Movie reviews : )

UNSTOPPABLE
Love this show, lots of suspense.

Easy A
Typical high school girl with the same type if things happening.

Harry Potter
Completed 1/4 of the show and........ BUT will complete it soon.

The Next Three Days
BORING. After 1.1/2 hours, the freaking husband haven even saved his wife out from prison!

RED
MAD NAISEEEE!!!!

Social Network
Lots of brain damage considering brain cells are very much needed.

Over.

2010-11-13T11:29:00.003+08:00

Consequences.

Glad that all is done and over with.
A day of unhappy is a day whereby you've lost.

We're gonna stay strong for now, and for always.

Endless.

2010-11-12T17:47:00.001+08:00

I can't concentrate during work,
I'm breaking down.

I cant.

2010-11-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

Aching.

Stuffed myself with all the paper works that I would usually leave till
the end of month before I key it.
Feels sorta good to occupy myself from thinking too much.

Things are getting ugly and I don't feel good.
Am I just so bad as a person?

Well done.

2010-11-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

Done by Milly's.
Apparently, the staff forgotten to cut away
the rubbery part and proceeded to straightening.
Whole shit got stuck onto my hair!

Family trip, ~~not~~.

When Dad insisted that I go to Malacca with him
and our family, I thought that his illness came back..
Hmmm, luckily it wasnt : )

Glad that he's still fine and hope it will forever stay that way.

Where my childhood gone to?

2010-11-09T14:54:00.003+08:00

Siencuriste.
Get it?

At times I wonder why is it that my character turned
out to be like this..
Was it due to me being neglected since young,
hence I can't take it being neglected now..
Times when I feel horribly insecure,
was it also due to them making me feel
insecure from young?

Those times when I was thrown around like a ball,
few months staying here, few months staying there..

Lost.

2010-11-08T11:00:00.001+08:00

What's right & what's wrong, huh?

I can't even tell whose the hypocrite,
whose the good & whose the bad.

Cam fun.

2010-11-07T13:04:00.001+08:00

Riding in the rain for the whole day ysd,
least I had my dim sum which is enough : )

Doggies are always loved.

2010-11-06T18:01:00.003+08:00

$5k pom!

Headed down to Sis work place after work : )